whatevers at the top of my mind.

I have this weird way of doing things , and i think i might have a problem differentiating thoughts and feelings apart.Am just going to rattle of random things of what i am thinking


1)I offer or show care and concern for kristy, and yet i do not personally feel engaged although i see the need that she really needs to take care of herself. without thought, its something instinctive or natural.

2) i have to stop and reconsider what i am doing before i actually apply myself to the task. happens alot in camp.

3) whats with the feeling of being contented being written off? Am i allowing myself to be let off the hook via disappointment? or am i just tethering myself to a convenient emotional pillow that allows me to absorb whatever comes my way, negative or positive.

4)I really wonder whats wrong . I tried to let out slightly or hint that i was slightly ready to let everything out , but in a twist of events , i ended up in dempsey hill's DOME . Had to resort to going to 7-11 to get liquor. Nothing happened either.

5) my wisdom is hurting like....a bitch. and giving headaches like... a bitch.