Friday, August 31, 2007

lingering doubt.

i sometimes try to drum away the static noise that enters and leaves quite easily nowadays while i am in camp , namely :

1) PSP

2) More textbooks.

3) Attempting to write.

4) talking. or keep running other thoughts of work


It's so easy to view this as angst. or should i stop myself from this and take a step back, and examine myself under the magnifying glass once more? While this was never a talent , having applied it myself as an isolationist , it so convenient to walk away. Life goes on day to day , i still remain , slightly paranoid and way. I still try to apply myself ( or hope) and remain the same weiming people know instead while i try to understand what is going on .

Honestly, it has been a chicken and duck affair so far.

Perhaps because I have overstretched myself emotionally. How ironic that now i am the one ambivalent instead.

i suppose that was an adequate answer to the last 4 months.

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